I Tried to Outrun the Aries Moon and She Put Me in Time-Out

If you’ve ever felt life slam the brakes—through illness, heartbreak, loss, or burnout—this conversation invites you to see the pause not as punishment, but as protection. We open with breathwork to ground your nervous system, then move into a raw story of hosting a community challenge under an Aries full moon while navigating a cancer diagnosis, the pressure to be strong, and the quiet call to surrender. Along the way, we honor ancestral guidance and the radical idea that you don’t have to earn rest.

Together, we unpack why presence equals power and why power doesn’t always look like action. You’ll hear three core truths of the medicine of surrender: stillness is fertile soil, crying is cleansing, and asking for help is an initiation into safer love. We talk about emotional regulation in plain language—how to become the steady voice your inner child needed—using simple practices you can try today: a hand over your heart, a mantra that anchors safety, and permission to cancel what your body can’t hold.

We also guide you through a somatic meditation that roots you into the earth, warms the heart with golden light, and helps release perfectionism and the fear of being seen. You’ll leave with reflective journal prompts to integrate the insights, plus a renewed understanding of how ancestral wisdom, breathwork, and nervous system safety work together. If you’re ready to stop carrying what isn’t yours and trust the timing of your healing, this is your invitation to soften, receive, and let the pause become your portal.

If this resonates, follow the show, share it with someone who’s resisting their own pause, and leave a review so more gente can find this space. What are you ready to release today?

Chapters

• 0:00 Welcome, Intention, And Grounding
• 4:23 Holding Space And Personal Health Reveal
• 8:55 Rest As Ancestral Medicine
• 13:02 Diagnosis, Grief, And The Portal Of Pause
• 18:30 Reframing Surrender And Emotional Regulation
• 23:05 Guided Somatic Journey Into Stillness

Transcript

Dora: 0:12

Ay Mijita, welcome back. If you're new here, my name is Dora Alicia Praxedis, and this is Ay Mijita, Embracing Your Raices, Reclaim Your Essencia, where we peel back the layers of who we were told to be so we can remember who we really are. And today, I'm coming to you design. Raw, tender, llena de gratitude. The last week, these last couple days, I've been walking through fire and flowers at the same time. But today is the last day of our challenge. Ignite your fire under the Aries full moon. And I've been holding so much light, so many tears, and so many mujeres finding their voice. And letting yourself be held when life forces you to slow the fuck down. So today, I want to speak to that pause. The one that we never asked for, but ends up becoming the medicine we needed all along. Whether your pause came through illness, heartbreak, loss, or burnout, this episode is an invitation to stop running from the silence and listen to what your soul's been trying to tell you all along. Before we go deep, let's ground juntos. Wherever you are, maybe you're driving, cooking, sitting with cafecito, or your beverage of choice, I invite you to close your eyes if it's safe. And take a deep breath in through your nose and hold it at the top. And exhale slowly through your mouth, like you're releasing the weak. Again, inhale la vida and hold at the top, and exhale el peso que no es tuyo. And because I love to do everything in threes, one more time. Big inhale for grace and hold. And exhale for surrender. And feel those shoulders melt down and lower. Let's begin. Hosting the challenge this week, it's cracked me open. I watched Mujeres Light Candles for the first time in months. I heard the quiver in some voices saying, I'm ready to let her go. That version of me who always had to be strong. And I saw myself in every single one of them. Because truthfully, while I was holding space for all of them and all of you, my body was holding space for me. The chemo talks, the doctor visits, the tests, the labs, the unknowns. It's like life said, Mihita, you teach surrender, now it's your turn to live it. And I'm not gonna lie, I resisted it at first. I wanted to be strong, keep recording, keep showing up like nothing was changing. But every night my body is whispering Namas, rest. The Aries full moon brought all that fire, the desire to move, to create, to push, but it's also bringing up a mirror, the reminder that fuego, fire, without faith can burn you out. So careful when you play with fire. And on the first night, when we were doing the opening ceremony, when we called in our ancestors, I felt my ancestors, my abuela, my mom, my dad's mom, put her hands on my shoulder and whisper, siéntate mija. You don't have to earn rest. And dang shit that hit that hit me deep. I'm not gonna lie. Because she's one that hasn't shown up yet. When I talk to and I open my Akashic Records and talk to my masters, teachers, and loved ones. Because growing up, pausing felt like weakness. I saw me mama working through pain. Me papa never stopping even when he was sick. He would go to work actually when he was sick. So my nervous system learned that to pause meant you'd fall behind. But this week, after all the energy, all the community love, all the tears, my body said, if you don't slow down, I'll slow you down. So I listened. I let myself cry. I let myself take a bath with some aromatherapy. I let my daughter cook dinner. I sat outside barefoot and let the sun be my limpia during my work day. And I realized pausing isn't punishment, it's protection. The pause is sacred. It's where spirit can finally get a word in edgewise. So to anyone listening who's been feeling that same pull, that fatigue you keep ignoring, that whisper to take a break, please know you're not a flojo. You're not lazy, you're not behind, you're being called back to yourself. In a minute, we'll dive into the story of what happens when life forces us to pause, when you don't get a choice but to stop, and how to find that meaning in that stillness. But before we move on, I want you to take one more deep breath with me. Inhale for every version of you who had to be strong. Exhale for the one who's learning to be soft. Let's continue. For me, that moment came the day the phone rang with my results. My daughter was right there beside me. And on speaker, I remember the doctor's voice, calm, clinical, to study for the earthquake that hit my chest. It's cancerous cells. And all I could think was, no, not now. I have plans. I have people counting on me. So that night I sat in silence and I watched my daughter's face as she tried to be strong for me. And I realized we've both been trained to be so brave. When what we really need is to feel. Not because I wanted to, but because I didn't want to make anyone uncomfortable. Does that sound familiar to you? That's what we do. We carry the unbearable so others don't have to. We self-sacrifice. But the body keeps core. The tears you don't cry, the words you swallow, que te tragas, they don't disappear. They sink. Sink, sink, sink into your body. In the stillness after the wedding, when the music stopped and my family slept, I I finally broke. I remember just crying unconsolably in my pillow. I prayed. And they didn't say be strong. They said descansar. We got you. That's the moment I understood. Sometimes spirit knocks you gently, and sometimes she rips the floor from under you. So you can land where you actually belong. Illness, heartbreak, loss, they're not punishments, they're portals. Portals that strip away the noise. So you can finally hear your own soul again. So if life has recently paused for you, if you're in the waiting room, the unknown, the in-between, please know that something beautiful is rearranging itself underneath all that chaos. You don't need to rush to fix it. You just need to stay present with what is. Because presence equals power. And power doesn't always look like action. Sometimes it looks like tears on your pillow and faith in your chest. Let's take one breath together for every time you were forced to pause. Inhale. Thank you for the lesson. Exhale. I release the fight. That's where healing begins. You know, surrender gets a bad reputation. We think surrender means giving up. Surrender is giving in to something bigger that's trying to hold you. In my own paws, I kept hearing one phrase over and over. Stop carrying what isn't yours. And that kind of became my mantra. Every time my mind spiraled, what if this treatment fails? What if I can't coach? What if I can't do what I want to do? I placed my hand over my heart and whispered, I'm safe in this pause. At first, it felt fake. Like, you know, I was just pretending. But slowly my nervous system started to believe it. I started to embody it. That's the practice of emotional regulation. You become the steady voice your inner niña never had. Sometimes surrender looks like letting the dishes sit. Other times it's canceling a meeting because your body said no. Well, mine says probably hell no. Sometimes it's allowing someone else to love you through the mess. And that's where I'm at right now. Is I'm an emotional wreck and I sometimes just need a hug. It's radical because we were raised to push. But the divine feminine teaches us to receive. When you receive, you become magnetic. You stop chasing what's already meant for you. The medicine of surrender taught me three truths. One, stillness doesn't mean stuckness. It's the fertile soil where new seeds root. So plant those seeds. Number two, crying isn't weakness, it's cleansing. It's your limpia in liquid form. Number three, asking for help is an initiation. Every quote unquote, can you hold me reteaches your nervous system that love is safe. These are not small things, they are revolutionary. So take a moment to reflect on those. I want to invite you into a mini practice right now. Put one hand over your corazon and the other over your belly. Now breathe in slowly through your nose. Feel your belly rise. Exhale through your mouth with a sigh. Whisper to yourself. I surrender the timeline. Again. I surrender the outcome. And one more. I surrender the need to understand. Notice how your body softens. That's your spirit saying gracias. The pause isn't empty. It's full of guidance if you listen. And right now I'll guide you through a deeper meditation and somatic journey so you can embody this surrender in your own body and feel spirit whisper back to you. Okay. Ahora quiero que te acomodas. If you can, lie down or sit somewhere comfortable. Let your spine be long, your palms open, facing up, feet connected to the floor, or earth beneath you. We're going to journey inward to the pause within you. Start with your breath. Inhale through your nose. Hold for three. And exhale through your mouth with the sigh. Again. Inhale la vida. Exhale thodo viejo. With every breath. Imagine roots growing from your feet into la Madre Tierra. She's holding you. You're not falling. You're being cradled. Now bring awareness to your heart. Imagine a soft golden light swirling there. Warm, alive. Whisper inside. I am safe to be still. Let that phrase travel through your chest down your arms into your belly. Feel any tension melt. If emotion rises, let it tears, chills, yawns. All are signs of release. The sun sets in fiery orange, the wind still. Here in the silence you find yourself. You kneel and place your hands on the sand. The earth pulses under you, whispering the stories of your ancestors. Inhale to the beat. One, two, three, four. Exhale one, two, three, four. Each beat, imagine releasing one expectation you've been carrying. The need to be perfect. The fear of being seen. Now over your heart, whisper. I forgive myself for the times I ignored my body. Again, I forgive myself for rushing my healing. One more. I trust the divine timing of my life. Feel that light in your heart expand, radiating out through your chest, filling the space around you. This is your pause turning into power. Stay here a few breaths. And when you're ready, slowly bring your awareness back. Wiggle your fingers, your toes, roll your shoulders, whisper a soft gracias. Thank you. After this meditation, take a few minutes to journal or voice note what came up. Number one, what has life recently asked me to release or slow down with? Number two, where in my body do I still feel resistance to rest? Number three, what does surrender mean to me? Not in my mind, but in my heart. And number four, who benefits when I finally choose softness? Write sin filtros. Cry if you need to, because every tear, is a piece of your healing, returning home. Take one more deep breath. Remember, the pause isn't your punishment, it's your initiation. Each time life whispers slow down, she's inviting you to hear the song beneath the noise. I hope this episode reminded you that your healing doesn't have to be perfect, it just has to be honest. Yesunono for accompany me in este camino de sanacion. So thank you so much for being part and witness to this healing journey from my heart to yours. If today's message moves something in you, share this episode with someone who's been resisting their own pause. Let's remind each other that we're never alone in este camino de volver a nosotras. Next week, we'll explore what it means to heal through community. Until then, embrace your raises, reclaim your essencia. Y recuerda, you are the light, la medicina y el milagro, that miracle waiting to happen. Bye.